Waiting Seasons...

But for now I rest in this in between
In the heaviness of this waiting ....season.
Knowing you are as close as the clothes I wear
These hours, my soul will savor
You surround me as I waver
Who am I to have know such favor?

Though this Sandra McCracken song is about her waiting for the arrival of her child, I am often struck by the reality of these lyrics. The longer I walk through life with the Father, I realize that seasons of waiting can often be some of the heaviest times in life. The constant temptations to be discontent with where you are, and to check out of things that the Lord would have for you in the present time. I often feel burdened and weary in this waiting as I look forward expectantly to the transitions and journey ahead. Yet, I am reminded that, while this time is a season of "waiting," I must be presently seeking after him and that waiting must coincide simultaneously with seeking.

“The LORD is my portion,” says my soul,
“therefore I will hope in him.”

The LORD is good to those who wait for him,
to the soul who seeks him.
(Lamentations 3:24-25 ESV)

If the LORD is my portion, then my hope is ultimately in him. Not in my future, not in my present circumstances, not in whatever I am "waiting" for. With my limited perspective of life and time, this passage reminds me that I don't wait for...... "fill in the blank." I wait FOR HIM!! And my LORD is good to the soul who seeks HIM!

So, as I continue on toward my international job, my prayer is that, at the feet of the Savior, I would sit and delight in what he is doing right now. In my soul...in the people around me....in Louisville. May it be so.